brakecrashburn

“now you know why all your friends did so well for the O levels and you did so badly. now you know why all the wrong questions came out for you. now you now why you were sick when all your friends went to compete. God is trying to teach you a lesson.”
it’s very sad that somehow, after 50 years of going to church and more than 10 years of studying the bible, the God they know seems to seek retribution. i don’t know why i see my O level score as a blessing and yet they see it as a curse, i see my being sick as an opportunity to spend time with God and they see it as punishment. it’s very weird. she said that i show one side of myself to my friends and another to my family. all i was trying to tell her was that she didnt have to pretend to be who she is not just because her bible study ‘friends’ were around. it’s quite funny actually. at home she’s always screaming her head off and telling me off. then when the phone rings, she’s all smiles, talking with this fake accent and telling her friends how God is so good and how He works in His own time etc. i know my parents think i’m a hopeless child who has no future, they sometimes tell me things as if to comfort me ‘because i’m not in jc’. but my Father in heaven tells me that my future is decided and it is as bright as the brightest morning star. sometimes i ‘answer back’ and tell them of the God i know but they seem to think that i’m deceiving myself. obviously their minds are set on the idea that God is out to get me for whatever wrong i’d done to them or whatever. somehow i don’t recognize this ‘god’ because the God i know works only for the good of those who love Him.

doh.