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to live is christ
to die is gain

sometimes i don’t feel like venting my frustrations and its rare that i get v angry esp in school. but today was crazy and i think i went a bit overboard. it was the product of being sick the whole day plus it was obscenely humid… like sauna humid. i was so tired by the time i got home (english mock+we had to write a whole lit and history essay during the day). i think i said something that i shouldn’t have and so since my parents don’t tolerate us children being rude (spare the rod, spoil the child), my mom decided to take action. she didnt whack me or anything but she took away my laptop. and since i knew i had so much to do on the internet+my mind was in a daze, i started shouting and i really feel quite bad. but the Lord has been ever so faithful and has blessed me with a this ‘forgetful’ heart, that i normally can’t get angry for more than 10 minutes. (unless you mess with my friends/belittle people which i really can’t stand but doesnt apply in this case since my mom isn’t a teacher)

You are faithful,
You are faithful,
You are faithful,
Your joy is my strength.

(p.s. tonight i feel the worst in quite a long while and i’m wondering if i really needed so much to be taken away to feel His presence again… and i’m guessing the answer is a yes)

sometimes i don’t feel like venting my frustrations and its rare that i get v angry esp in school. but today was crazy and i think i went a bit overboard. it was the product of being sick the whole day plus it was obscenely humid… like sauna humid. i was so tired by the time i got home (english mock+we had to write a whole lit and history essay during the day). i think i said something that i shouldn’t have and so since my parents don’t tolerate us children being rude (spare the rod, spoil the child), my mom decided to take action. she didnt whack me or anything but she took away my laptop. and since i knew i had so much to do on the internet+my mind was in a daze, i started shouting and i really feel quite bad. but the Lord has been ever so faithful and has blessed me with a this ‘forgetful’ heart, that i normally can’t get angry for more than 10 minutes. (unless you mess with my friends/belittle people which i really can’t stand but doesnt apply in this case since my mom isn’t a teacher)

You are faithful,
You are faithful,
You are faithful,
Your joy is my strength.

(p.s. tonight i feel the worst in quite a long while and i’m wondering if i really needed so much to be taken away to feel His presence again… and i’m guessing the answer is a yes)

The spirit now living and dwelling within me
Keep my eyes fixed ever upon Jesus’ face
Let not the things of this world ever sway me
I’ll run ’till I finish the race

Now unto the lamb who sits on the throne
Be glory and honour and praise
All of creation resounds with the song
Worship and praise him the Lord of Lords

lord of lords-hillsong

onward we charge for tomorrow will bring with it great blessings. i am so very excited to spread your word again and again until i see you face to face, O Lord. i now pray for strength to love on others like you first loved us and to spread your word without hesitation and to reach out to those hungry for more, hungry for you. i pray that my faith will never waver and that i will be eternally strong and victorious by your blood. your blood, the blood that was spilt for my sins has redeemed me and i will forever love you because you are who you are.
every step i take in you, you are my way Jesus.

The spirit now living and dwelling within me
Keep my eyes fixed ever upon Jesus’ face
Let not the things of this world ever sway me
I’ll run ’till I finish the race

Now unto the lamb who sits on the throne
Be glory and honour and praise
All of creation resounds with the song
Worship and praise him the Lord of Lords

lord of lords-hillsong

onward we charge for tomorrow will bring with it great blessings. i am so very excited to spread your word again and again until i see you face to face, O Lord. i now pray for strength to love on others like you first loved us and to spread your word without hesitation and to reach out to those hungry for more, hungry for you. i pray that my faith will never waver and that i will be eternally strong and victorious by your blood. your blood, the blood that was spilt for my sins has redeemed me and i will forever love you because you are who you are.
every step i take in you, you are my way Jesus.

Lord Your Name is higher than the heavens
Lord Your Name is higher than all created things
Higher than hope
Higher than dreams
The Name of the Lord

this perfect love never fails to amaze me. again and again and again i am brought to my knees in humility. to know that you would sign your name on every deed that we had done, that you would die for our very mistakes. i am utterly speechless, O Lord. for his love reaches out to the heavens and his faithfulness to the skies. i will be the one to shout your fame forever.

You are the God who lives, You are the God who heals
Who are my hope my everything
You brought salvation to us offered your peace to the earth
You are my Lord my everything

Kings will come, kings will go
Nations rise, nations fall
But at the end of it all
I say Jesus Christ is Lord

My god, my God, you hold the nations in your hands
and I stand in awesome wonder of your name, Jesus
You’re King of heaven yet you still love me
I’ll Shout the glory of your name

i was planning to do a post on my life and how stuff’s been going but i dont think its that important anymore since the news i just recieved probably deserves to be read before stuff concerning me.

i dont know what’s happening but this seems to be happening to everyone around me. one by one, they’re dropping down. literally lik flies, without any particular reason. first it was whit’s dad then my brother’s officer then thaddeus then a few other family friends then my own dad and now sarah’s dad. i feel like i have to do something about it because it seems so unstoppable like it creeps up when no one’s watching and just attacks.

i’m talking about cardiac arrest, fatal or not. it’s really been freaking me out. esp the past month or so. i know i haven’t exactly talked about it but my dad almost passed away a week before prelims so yeah, talk about cramming after my season, life’s just too unpredictable. i was so scared i didnt do much the next few days. thank God they restarted his heart and he’s alive and i guess kicking but he’s one out of 2 i know that actually survived this. so what made me do this post was cuz my mom just told me that sarah’s dad went into cardiac arrest and collapsed while visting her in the us. he passed away immediately. i’m kinda fear stricken right now but please do pray for her and her family.

so i look to you
so i look to you
no one else but you will do