brakecrashburn

tired & strangely disatisfied

(i hunger for You desperately)
((omg i have like zero/no/nada life!))

11.30pm
should i train now? or tomorrow morning?

though its more often than not the main cause of my stress and fatigue. and though its been eating up my examination preparation time like crrazy. i’m gonna miss this team that i can almost call my family. this team that taught me perseverance, courage, determination and made me what i am today, this team i will dearly miss. :’(

go team, we’ll show them what we’re made of!
i know that Jesus will hold us and most definitely keep us this coming season.

tomorrow marks the start of our season, in fact:
27/6/08-29/6/08 (synchro natls)
1/7/08-9/7/08 (swim natls)
13/7/08 (sarah/me- OSIM!)

though its more often than not the main cause of my stress and fatigue. and though its been eating up my examination preparation time like crrazy. i’m gonna miss this team that i can almost call my family. this team that taught me perseverance, courage, determination and made me what i am today, this team i will dearly miss. :’(

go team, we’ll show them what we’re made of!
i know that Jesus will hold us and most definitely keep us this coming season.

tomorrow marks the start of our season, in fact:
27/6/08-29/6/08 (synchro natls)
1/7/08-9/7/08 (swim natls)
13/7/08 (sarah/me- OSIM!)

i was just taking a walk. (not that i actually had the time to) anyway, i asked myself “what are you doing with your life?” as i listened to this:

You changed my life, so I give you my all
You’re worthy, ’cause you laid down your life

There’s no substitute for your love
And I will sing of you always,

There is no god like mine,
He rules the Earth
Let all creation sing his praise

He’s the king of all kings
Most holy one
And I’ll forever shout your name

(no God like mine- youth alive, western australia)

how could we give anything less than our all to this God that gave His all for us. be it in my religious endeavours or triathloning or my academics, i’m definitely not giving my all and i’m so so ashamed. I cannot let myself be pulled down by (very sadening) results or even hearsays (that, i hope, may not be true)
Lord, lead me on, lead me on
i can turn this around with your help, love and guidance.
i love you so much, Father.

i didnt know it’d feel so horrible.
i miss u so much
(will you come back soon pls?)
…even tho u seem a lightyr away.
baby (will you ever) come back to me:(

all i am-youth alive
the day you came and saved me;
i was lost inside.
you called my from my darkness;
and into your light.
all i am is Yours.

though it seems like there’s no way out and that this situation could’ve been avoided i’m gonna take it that God is trying to teach me something more. that i may be of help to people who may face similar situations in the future. (like char said) so far, it seems that He’s trying to teach me patience(and lots of it), wisdom and really just control. each lesson He teaches seems to be more difficult(complicating!) then the previous. but somehow there’s faith lingering in that this lesson will be learned and learned well. with a supportive bunch and God, what more could i ask for?
all i can do is surrender and worry not about tomorrow. (for tomorrow will worry about itself!)

all i am-youth alive
the day you came and saved me;
i was lost inside.
you called my from my darkness;
and into your light.
all i am is Yours.

though it seems like there’s no way out and that this situation could’ve been avoided i’m gonna take it that God is trying to teach me something more. that i may be of help to people who may face similar situations in the future. (like char said) so far, it seems that He’s trying to teach me patience(and lots of it), wisdom and really just control. each lesson He teaches seems to be more difficult(complicating!) then the previous. but somehow there’s faith lingering in that this lesson will be learned and learned well. with a supportive bunch and God, what more could i ask for?
all i can do is surrender and worry not about tomorrow. (for tomorrow will worry about itself!)

it finally seems withing reach.

200 free for the win!

TEAM HONOURS HERE WE COME!

blessed be Your name

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For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

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J,S,MsL

Better than the riches of this world

Better than the sound of my friends voices

Better than the biggest dreams in my heart and that’s just the start

Better than getting what I say I need

Better than living the life that I wan’t to

Better than the love anyone could give